Wednesday, March 5, 2008

3D ultrasound

Mike and I got to see a glimpse of our little girl this morning. Here are 3 pictures. She has such a cute little nose!!!

Every time her face came into view I started to cry a little bit. I just can't believe that I am growing a human in me. It really brings to reality this great sense of responsibility that God has given us. Mike and I have never been parents. We are both selfish human beings that want everything to go our way. How in the world does God expect us to be the kind of Godly examples that he requires of us? And then I am reminded of His grace. He doesn't expect us to be perfect. He knows that we cannot be perfect, as His son is the only Perfect human being to ever step foot on earths soil. What He does expect of us is to live our lives worthy of his calling. If we do that, and raise our children according to His word and will, then we cannot fall too far from that which is required of us.

Proverbs 22:6 Train a child in the way he should go,
and when he is old he will not turn from it.

More and more every day I become aware of the eternal responsibility that I have as a parent. It is no longer just myself that I need to get to heaven. Now I have a soul that I am responsible for. I must teach her morales. I must teach her respect. I must teach her independence. I must teach her about sin and salvation. I must set an example of what a Godly woman, mom, sister, daughter, and most importantly Wife looks and acts like. I must teach her how to maintain a house, how to provide for herself and her family. I must teach her when it is okay to get dirty and rough house, and when it is necessary to be girlie (something I have only recently learned myself). I must make sure that she is raised with love and support and somehow teach her how to let God fill that void in her heart, so that she doesn't find some other means to fill it. I will then have to learn to let her make mistakes and learn from them. I will have to suffer the heartache that every mother experiences as she learns to fly on her own. I will have to stand by and watch while she fixes her own mistakes so that she may learn from them, all the while wanting to jump in and save her, but knowing that would not save her at all.

I know that I am not doing this alone. Mike will be there struggling and learning, and loving her. Most importantly we will have God as our guide. We will have Him to turn to when we don't understand something, and we will have His word to reference when we need direction. he is always there thankful. Regardless of the time or day, He is waiting for us to call upon Him. Thank you Lord for your presence. For without you we would be lost! :)


Stephanie said...

What a beautiful post! You are going to be a great mommy! All mommies have that fear at sometime or another. Once you have that baby and hold it in your arms for the first time, all that fear turns to joy and nature steps in. You'll be amazed to know what to do.

I'm taking some food to a friend today who just had a baby a few weeks ago and she told me on the phone, "I wasn't prepared how much I would love my baby." It's an incredible experience.

Melanie said...

Love the pictures. It's hard to wrap your brain around the fact that God has placed an eternal being into your womb, isn't it?