16 weeks

Well, here's my baby belly at 16 weeks. I finally actually look pregnant! :)

Mike & I got to hear the heartbeat this morning and it is a strong 151. So...going by old wives tales it should be a girl, but we will find out for sure on Dec 12th.

Lately I have been really wanting a girl. I don't know if it's because of all the cute girl stuff out there, or if it's because we already have my sister's boys an no girls, or if it's because I want a mini-me to play with... =) I have always wanted it to be a boy, but the last week especially I have really wanted it to be a girl.

I haven't been able to feel the baby yet. A few weeks ago I think I felt it, but you can just never tell. Hopefully within the next week or two I will be able to feel him/her more distinctly!!!

Well, it would work out well because the only name that Mike and I can can both agree on so far is Faith! :) We'll see!!!!

I'm going to have a baby!

I was watching Private Practice last night and the whole show was on labor and delivery. I was watching everything with no particular thought, except for critiquing the acting, until the end. It was a strange reaction I must say. I have always seen babies and loved to hold them and play with them, and LOVED the idea of one day having one of my own. Well, this was a new thought and associated emotion that I experienced. I was looking at the new moms holding the babies and all of the sudden it occured to me....I am going to have one of my own in 6 months.

6 MONTHS!!!!!!!

I started to cry and dream about what they would look like. How God will chose to combine Mike's genes with mine. What the labor will be like, and how our lives will change. And the cool thing is, none of it scared me. I am looking forward to the experience. I want to know what it is to feel the pain of labor, and the joy of holding our baby for the first time. I want the exhaustion of waking up multiple times a night for feeding, and all of the sudden having this new person that I have to schedule my life with. And not around. I think so many mothers miss the boat on this. They see a child as a hinderance to living. That their life just got that much more complicated. That's not how God intended it to be. A new child is a blessing, and no one should ever feel any different!!!

For those of you that don't know I plan to go all natural. No drugs. No epidural. No cutting. ALL NATURAL BABY!!! For those that know me it is not a surprise. Please begin now to pray for my baby's arrival. That it will be not be pain free, but that it will be free of complications. God is our designer and creator and he designed women to deliver babies.

My purpose in life has now become clear. I have never been extatic about a job. I love my current job, and have had a few in the past that I enjoyed as well, but I never felt the "BINGO! That's what I am supposed to be doing!!" feeling when thinking about a career.

Being a wife and mom....that's what I am supposed to do! That is what feels right! That is where God wants me!

Slow Dance poem

SLOW DANCE

Have you ever watched kids

On a merry-go-round?

Or listened to the rain

Slapping on the ground?


Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?

Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?


You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.



Do you run through each day

On the fly?

When you ask How are you?

Do you hear the reply?


When the day is done

Do you lie in your bed

With the next hundred chores

Running through your head?


You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.


Ever told your child,

We'll do it tomorrow?

And in your haste,

Not see his sorrow?


Ever lost touch,

Let a good friendship die

Cause you never had time

To call and say,'Hi'


You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.


When you run so fast to get somewhere

You miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry through your day,

It is like an unopened gift....

Thrown away.


Life is not a race.

Do take it slower

Hear the music

Before the song is over.